grad night was today..ok..yest..since it's 12..and well..it was fun..until i got home. my parents are abnormal. thay have the ability to sense when i'm happy. and it really irks them..my mother especially. EVERYTIME she opens her mouth..it's to criticise. she never praises. she has no capacity to praise..everything she says is mean and annoying. so bloody tired of everything at home. i feel like crying when i'm at home with either of my parents..or my sis. my sis has, naturally, graciously picked up the nasty habit from my mother. when i asked her if all my make up has been removed, she says 'no, it looks like u have very bad dark rings.' gees...as if it wasn't obvious enough i was pissed. so i told her to shut up and she had the cheek to look offended. i mean..really..if she says just 'your eyes', it'll more than suffice.when my mum saw me..and my nicely made up face (courtesy of adri's mum)..ok..by the time my mum saw me..my face wasn't that nicely made up..she said 'why are your eyes like that?' in an oh-gosh-you-look-disgusting tone. now..aft a night of feeling pretty and ppl telling me i look quite nice..that came as a rude shock and well..it spoilt my night. thanks mum.
also..i got approached to consider taking part in an inter-jc pageant..and i thought my mum would be happy for me. i overestimated her propensity to feel glad. she just has to ruin it by saying u can't take part..u WILL decline their offer. well..guess what..i don't care. it's not as if i'm already in the pageant..they just asked me to try out for it..so i guess i will. i mean..why not? how often do u get such a chance? why does she have to ruin most of my happy moments????? i really thank God for Jason..he's an angel in my tumultuous life. my goal for the next 3 yrs, by then..i'd be 21..legally adult, is to save enough money and move outta this shit place. i can't take it for very much longer.
